These last 6 months have been some of the most stressful in my life. The difficulties are not over yet, but it does feel like the worst has passed. Though hopefully this is not simply wishful thinking.

 

Just to be clear, this was not one lesson learned per month; my life at least is not that cut and dried. In fact, let this untidy caveat be about Lesson One: Real Life is, more often than not, an utter mess.

 

Lesson Two

When curled up in a fetal position overwhelmed and whimpering, or crying hard, ugly tears of despair, don’t expect to see the light. Because dark is dark. Night is night. ‘This too shall pass’ is a truism that doesn’t necessarily take into consideration how long the tunnel is.

 

Lesson Three

A song can save me. For example, ‘You’re Gonna Be Ok’ by Brian & Jenn Johnson: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LjF9IqvXDjY

 

Lesson Four

Receive the comfort of nature, whether it’s the companionship of pets; the singing of crickets or pied fantails; the colour of sky, the green of pine, or the smell of cut grass.

 

Lesson Five

This is precisely the time NOT to stop any healthy habits to do with eating and exercising. Good nutrition is a godsend, and pushing my body to its limits, sweating it out, can be a great release.

(Screaming into a pillow is also a great rage-releaser, very handy if you don’t want to alarm the neighbours, but not very kind to your voice box.)

 

Lesson Six

Ask for help. Especially for prayer. It need only be from one or two friends, but it helps. Don’t know how – in my four decades of being a Jesus follower, the mystery of love and prayer has only grown deeper – but praying friends have buoyed me up like a life-saving jacket in a raging river.

Courage comes as a grain of steadfast hope: turning to face the future even as fear breathes its merciless threats down the back of your neck.

 

 

 

Photo: Late afternoon garden sunshine, Northumberland, U.K.

What were your two most boring subjects at school? For many of us these were R.E. (*) and grammar. For you too?

 

Did you know that theology has much in common with grammar, especially when it comes to the teaching thereof?

 

As the idea of good grammar is to open up the human faculties to a language, so is the idea of good theology to reveal the ways of God.

 

And just as the bad teaching of grammar shuts down the understanding, so the bad teaching of theology closes the door to the divine.

 

To some degree this explains my empathy as an English teacher for Jesus’ outrage over the Pharisees: the very ones who should have been showing the way, were blocking the way.

 

Teachers have a lot to answer for.

 

 

 

(*) Religious Education

 Photo: Garden path, Northumberland, U.K.

“I’m after mercy, not religion. I’m here to invite outsiders, not coddle insiders.”

 

Guess who said – the Aramaic equivalent of – these words?

 

Right!

 

I suppose He knew it wouldn’t be long before we’d be boxing our devotion into a religion.

And that we’d need reminding that His priorities tend to radically differ from our own, especially when it comes to the pampering of religious insiders.

 

For no man-made institution can fully contain His love.

 

He invented Thinking Outside the Box.

 

Just as the religious top nobs were offended all those years ago, when Jesus seemed to prefer to hang out with the “crooks and riffraff”, would we, in all likelihood, be somewhat taken aback by the kind of people Jesus wants to spend time with today?

 

The kind of people He wants us to spend time with.

 

And shouldn’t we be so, SO relieved.

 

Because, let’s be honest, if the riffraff are His kind of people,

 

those are the kind of people

 

we are.

 

 

Photo: Awhitu Peninsula, New Zealand

Quote: The Message; Matthew 9:13

How far is my fixation on this handheld device coopting – even corrupting – my life?

Does staring into its ‘light’ feed my greed and my prejudices?

Does it fan flames of distrust?

Does it make my soul squint?

Does it darken my heart and mind against understanding?

 

Inspired by thoughts expressed so long ago, yet right now they seem more relevant than ever:

“Your eyes are windows into your body. If you open your eyes wide in wonder and belief, your body fills up with light. If you live squinty-eyed in greed and distrust, your body is a dank cellar. If you pull the blinds on your windows, what a dark life you will have!” 

The Message; Matthew 6:22,23

 

 

 

Photo: Wide in Wonder, clouds and sunlight over Manila

Let’s not say
anything
we don’t
mean.
We only make
things
worse
when we lay down
a smoke screen
of
pious talk,
saying,
“I’ll pray for you,”
and never
doing it,
or saying,
“God be with you,”
and not
meaning it.
We don’t make
our words
true
by embellishing them
with
religious lace.
In making our speech sound
more
religious
it becomes
less
true.
When we manipulate
our words
to get
our own way,
we go

wrong.

 

 

Based on The Message; Matthew 5: 33-37

Photo: New Year’s Eve Filipino sky

Photo: Hope in the storm

This year, for reasons both within and beyond our control, we haven’t hung up a single Christmas decoration. It’s surprisingly liberating!

There’s an unexpected benefit from these circumstances. With the clutter, the glitz, the glamour, the tinsel gone, I can see who is in the room and who is not.

Or in the stable, to be more specific. The occupants: this precious, new family; the calming (if smelly) companionship of these animals. The visitors: a bunch of salt of the earth, behind the scenes folks, these shepherds – the street sweepers, factory workers, bus / jeepney drivers of our world – in a state of dazed shock after their very own angelic live hillside show.

And that’s it.

No, razzmatazz, VIP three kings-wisemen delegation. They come much later to another location.

The family, the shepherds, the animals.

This is where and with whom God chooses to make His entrance.

Let’s not miss it.

The blood, the sweat, the straw, the dung.

There’s something else here.

Hope.

Hope which has absolutely nothing to do with anticipation triggered by the glitter and shimmer of hanging ornaments, or piles of boxes.
No, this is hope of something beyond imagining, charged by the actuality of something that has already happened: the Divine Personified stepping into the room, our room, into our reality, our muck and mess.

Hope is here.

Merry Christmas!

What do you think of when looking at this picture?

(Besides it being “a shouting teabag”, as an observant friend pointed out.)

 

It’s one of those feel good photos, isn’t it!

 

Appearances can be so very deceiving.

 

You want to know the truth behind this shot? An hour or so earlier, I was striding out of the house in a fury of despair. Despite my Englishness, I had no thought of getting a cup of tea at that moment. I just needed to exit before exploding.

 

It was a curious sensation pressing “post” to share the picture on my Facebook wall. I was intentionally crossing a line, acutely aware of conscious deception: a deliberate choice to present an illusion, an implied reality. I had put on my mask.

 

My fake subliminal message: I am a cool person who totally knows how to make the most out of life.

 

My excuse? I tell myself that folks will see through any self-promoting propaganda. After all, they must know I’m just a fellow human being!

 

Indeed, perhaps the biggest problem with all this feel good photography, is not deceiving others, but rather deluding ourselves.

 

Who we say we are, is often who we wish we were.

 

Lord, help us to know when

and how

to take off our masks.

There’s the awesome three-some-ness, that ‘holy trinity’ of

Faith

Hope

Love

As sides of a triangle, as legs of a stool, they belong together.

Faith

Hope

Love

 

Yet each is magnificently unique; in that sense, of course, the comparison with sides of a triangle and legs of a stool do them utter injustice.

Let’s sneak a peek into faith first…

“The fundamental fact of existence is that this trust in God, this faith, is the firm foundation under everything that makes life worth living. It’s our handle on what we can’t see.”

• The Message; Hebrews 11:1

Faith is foundational. A solid bedrock on which to build our lives. Designed to withstand shaking. And giving the value of eternity to all life resting on it.

Faith helps us make some sense of life. Like a pair of glasses, it brings into focus what would otherwise be a disconcerting blur.

“It’s impossible to please God apart from faith. And why? Because anyone who wants to approach God must believe both that he exists and that he cares enough to respond to those who seek him.”

• The Message; Hebrews 11: 6

Faith, our faith, also in a sense, helps God. Even when it’s a tiny smidgen of a thing, it gives him access to us. And us access to him.

Faith is a doorway.

Indeed, faith has very little to do with quantity, and everything to do with quality.

That sentence in Hebrews 11:6 contains the universe-exploding, life-changing “and that he cares”! The significance of the faith we’re talking about here is that it’s not only a matter of believing the Ultimate Divine Being exists, but also of having an inkling who he is, what he is like.

Faith assures:

Here is God

Who loves you.

 

 

Have you noticed how focusing on the wrong things means we get sidetracked, as in led down the wrong path in our life’s journey? Worst case scenario we lose our way, at best we waste time. Either way, harm is involved…

 

In the context of weight and nutrition, we are now coming to the realization that it’s far better – and more enjoyable – to drop our obsession about losing or gaining weight, and focus instead on healthy eating. The calorie fixation swallowed our attention whole, and oversimplified, if not totally misled, our understanding of the human body. Nutrition was sacrificed on the calorie counting altar as we desperately sought the holy grail of the perfect body weight. Now science and common sense are coming to the rescue as we turn our backs on our processed fake food dependency, and embrace the goodness and tastes of Real Food.

 

By the way, a certain Dr Hyman, has a lot of good stuff to say about this. For example: http://drhyman.com/blog/2015/05/15/want-to-burn-fat-then-eat-more-not-less-food/

 

And what might all of this be hinting at in terms of our souls, our spirits, our inner lives?

 

Just as in the rush of fast food consumption I was inadvertently neglecting my physical health, am I careering through my life in fifth gear without a moment of good ol’ honest reflection?

 

Or is the root problem not speed, but distraction? I fill my waking hours with the junk food of activities and entertainment; so preoccupied, I come nowhere near asking a single candid question…

 

It just might be that I have been running away from facing the truth of my utter need.

 

The good news is that it takes recognizing the bad news of our internal poverty to see the good news of Help right there for us.

 

“You’re blessed when you’ve lost it all.
God’s kingdom is there for the finding.
You’re blessed when you’re ravenously hungry.
Then you’re ready for the Messianic meal.
You’re blessed when the tears flow freely.
Joy comes with the morning.”

• The Message; Luke 6: 20, 21

 

 

Loss

Hunger

Tears

 

Their reality demands Real Food.