STARTLED AWAKE 

Are you ever startled by beauty, catching sight of something unexpected in nature? It might be the smallest of things (Forget-Me-Nots), or the biggest (this morning’s sunrise), but it can feel like being nudged awake – jolted even – out of the brain benumbing inertia of screen addiction.

A cardinal beetle once did something like that for me, and in thanks, I wrote the following:

ODE TO AN INSECT

such sophistication of red
encasing wings of silk 
symmetry of black
antenna curve of antler
jet ivory of elk 

drinking in the sight of you

full-bodied delicacy
tracing your lines 

of majesty 

love calls to love
& echoes through
our atoms

From poetry collection ‘Dear Planet’, published by Fidessa Literary, July 2025.

PIGLET DOESN’T ALWAYS HAVE TO BE A COWARD

“So deeply admire anyone involved in conflict resolution, especially as I can be hugely conflict avoidant. Poetry has been my compassionate therapist, my Pooh Bear, coaxing me into an understanding of how I got here: why my instincts are to hide at the faintest whiff of conflict. And the truth sets us free. Piglet doesn’t always have to be a coward.”

The above paragraph was my response to a prompt question, “How can you think about conflict in your life through the lens of poetry?” Each Sunday Pádraig Ó Tuama posts a deeply reflective piece on his wonderful Poetry Unbound Substack (poetryunbound.substack.com), always including a thought-provoking question, which is inevitably hard to resist. 

Writing the poem below has been part of my process – recognising where certain fears came from (and why standing at the sink, washing the dishes is a favourite place). 

Sometimes it’s only once we understand where we actually are, that we can truly start to move on…

AFTER DINNER MINTS


Sky rent in two 

falling between 

soles finding ground 

I take my stand in silence.

She hurt beyond betrayal 

he haunted and subdued 

chasms ripple them apart 

pernicious waves of white noise.

History layering upon

itself, unpeeling one from 

another, an After Eights messy matter. 

No wonder I seek sanctuary 

in soap suds and greasy dishes 

while fault lines re-form 

I mask my aftershocks 

my crumbling.

From poetry collection ‘Dear Planet’, published by Fidessa LiteraryJuly 2025.

poem: WAKING

Even if it’s for just a moment, have you ever had that sensation that you’re sliding up out of sleep and into awake-ness, like transferring up out one world into another? 

WAKING    

“Dreams fade with morning light, Never a morn for thee, Dreamer of dreams, goodnight.” – Roberto Bolaño

Breaching

surface 

a mermaid reborn 

to walk the earth.

Dripping

from scalp 

from ocean pressed

ebony tresses–

seawater celestial blues

prismed through trans-

terrestrial matrix 

of sentient

light.

Higher 

she rises

faster falls

these dream

sapphires

of iridescence

into oblivion 

of the 

forgotten.

First published in The Amphibian Literary and Art Journal, March 2025; part of debut poetry collection ‘Dear Planet’ to be published by Fidessa Literary later this year.

poem: LIVE CAM

Watching Philippine Hawk Eagles raise their chick during Covid-19 lockdown

chlorophyll veils 

your edges 

light shifts 

blurs 

tethers 

your piecing beak 

eyes

noble neck 

nest 

brooding solid

while all earth 

sways

First published in Honeyguide Literary Magazine, October 2023: https://www.honeyguidemag.com/live-cam-ann-van-wijgerden?fbclid=IwAR2eedUargNsL2si9lAEOrDE27wZhJenigwLtdMLWGixHpWfv-ZsmUcLwr0

poem: Morning Chorus

Dear calico she does her daily mee-yowll,

a post-breakfast roaring lioness, beagle 

grunts & groans in doggy joy of back roll 

& squirm, sparrows & roosters, doves & 

orioles enchant this first coffee with chirps 

& crows, coos & cries, while I, tapping out 

these words on my phone, vowels rolling over 

tongue, all such music not only for ourselves,

for the ecstasy of stretch, but also some sacred 

task, heralding one to another: We Are Here!

First published in Honeyguide Literary Magazine, October 2023: https://www.honeyguidemag.com/morning-chorus-ann-van-wijgerden?fbclid=IwAR3sfU3C9_kp-u6YEbcy3y2wiSodu_PlfEdrHydbb5MosCFsCVl2oW2VVLE

MONDAY

1st August 1949

RMS Largs Bay, departing Southampton docks, 

pauses one moment more amidst a million shreds 

of sun from steel, sea, and sky, as clamour of farewells 

joins cacophony of gulls, metal on stone, scrape of ship, 

shout of sailor, horn’s blast drowning into whimpers,

final cries of hope and heartache, while you 

remain wordless, sharp features a granite mask, 

gripping handrail, knuckles matching fresh ivory paint, 

accentuating jet-black hair and stubble; crushed 

and jostled between overexcited Ten Pound Poms

you are one of one thousand seekers, 

though you seek yourself more than most, 

staring below at upturned faces, then squeezing, contorting 

emaciated torso, limbs, you pull back, escaping starboard, 

where space and thrill of freedom ignite a yearning to break 

into a run as through summer-warm fields of boyhood. 

A single sliver of mirror silver, 

no memory, but a maddening hint of one. 

Golden-haired woman emerges from below decks, 

a swaddled baby close to her breast, and you are undone. 

Familiar evil crashes over you. Quelling panic, you press 

palms and forehead to burnished bulkhead. Surely no one 

carries a secret like yours. Yet surely many do. Skull 

and fingertips conduct the throbbing of deep, distant 

engines – pulsing heart of this all-encompassing ferric 

surrogate mother. She bore countless souls to battle, 

now she bears countless more, safely wrapped in iron 

womb, cherishing secrets beneath her sheet of white, 

giving birth after seven weeks, spilling you all out

onto Australia’s south-western shores.

Your name, a meaningless label, your identity 

lost by the doctors of your day, guinea pig to their sciences. 

A double-edged reaper had scythed away your sanity. 

Electroshock and insulin as ravenous bears, 

smashing through honeycomb memories, 

devouring contents, sweet and sour sucked empty, 

licked clean: trauma forgotten, you remembered 

nothing.

Who was this furrow-browed man, this weeping woman, 

insisting you were their son? 

Who was this fragile golden girl wailing bitterly, 

You were her husband and father of this baby boy? 

Death beckoning, 

doctors presenting 

their last intervention: 

life sentence in a mental asylum 

or emigrate 

immediately.

History lover and teacher 

       you will become, 

no one questioning 

       why you never share your own. 

Too few will be those to whom you tell 

       your truth, 

too few to shield you from the incessant 

       inner accusations 

of abandonment. 

       Thus, guilt will gnaw soul, 

twist mind to knots, 

       maul spirit for fifty years, 

until, one empty Monday morning,

       the phone rings in your hallway and– 

your firstborn comes 

       seeking you.

First published in Last Stanza Poetry Journal, July 2023; Issue #13 ‘These Things We Carry’